i was just thinking about how i've never been to a baby shower before lol... i think once when i was like 6 for my aunt but that was a long time ago. but anyways, i don't like pregnant women too much and i especially don't like myself when i'm snapping and yelling at kris for no reason and he gets all sad and just wants to cuddle and gives me kisses until i fall asleep. i'm one of THOSE pregnant women lol.. but anyways, would i really need one since i already have all the baby stuff i'll ever need from family? i've always thought it was kinda pointless but i guess it could be fun. ehhh..

thanksgiving and black friday was a hit and a success! granted i kicked kris out of bed at 2am to go and do the shopping but everything on our wishlist was crossed off and he's all set for deployment! i'm also very tempted to go and buy some clothes even though i really don't need any but i love to dress warm and cozy in this cold weather. the cold air on my face with a warm comfy scarf wrapped around me up to my ears. mmmmm cozy! we're still facing the food coma of thanksgiving but knowing that i'm home, i'm pretty anxious to eat all my mom's cooking. i really can't wait to move home and enjoy myself in a month.

the 1st trimester screening today went very well :) the baby is 8.2 cm's and is growing right now track! the baby was moving so much that even this new ob (i have 2 now, a regular one and a high risk one that does all my screenings) didn't really both to catch a heartbeat like my other ob but after a close up of the baby's chest, it's still fluttering so fast. the baby was moving and moving and after tiring itself out, it just passed out for a nap on it's face with it's little butt in the air and legs tucked under. such a cute baby! baby's nose doesn't look to be like a little asian nose so far and it's chin is huge looking compared to the rest of it's body so i'm curious how it's all gonna even out. it's pretty comical when i think about it. got an appt set up and ready to go for the anatomy scan in 5wks and i can't wait to know what we're having! kris and i were supposed to of had left already but he has his cpl's course and it's taking forever! oh well i still need to pack :P but shhh! don't tell him that!

this week is gonna fly by again as did last week but i'm even more excited for this week than last week. it's cause we're gonna go to the bay area to visit my mom and family and eat lots of yummy food! mmmmm :D today was an easy day and i actually felt like i was in my 5th wk of pregnancy all over again but the baby cut me a break after a while so i ate and chilled. tomorrow will be cleaning out my car and doing lots of laundry so i can pack for the drive wednesday night. then wednesday kris is getting off early so he can go with me to see the baby at the 1st trimester screening and he's so excited! it'll be his first time seeing the baby :) then we're gonna go pick up my cousins and start the drive home! i'm so excited!! AHHHH!! LOL

well the last couple of days has been so much fun. we went to vegas for the marine corps ball and my queasiness went away a couple hrs into the trip so i was so relieved! wendy's grandmother did our hair and i did both of our's makeup. we barely made it back to the hotel with 30mins to spare before cocktail hour but we were fashionably late as kris said so it was ok :P when he opened the room door when i finally got there, he was speechless. i love doing that to this guy - he just stares and stutters and can't believe what he's looking at lol we got dressed and mingled with a bunch of his friends which was really nice and kris finally got to show me off to everyone. and can you say baby bump?! all his friends are excited and we had a great time! we mingled some more and we were all over the ball room! finally the ceremony started and it was so cool to see sgt maj who is like 87 talk about WWII, korea, vietnam etc and he just retired this year! i mean talk about motivated! and i was so touched when he mentioned the wives and said how proud he was of us and all that we do for our men, that it is because of us that they are strong when they're away. it really blew my mind. he had an amazing sense of humor as well! he started off the speech with 'my folks invented poverty. i ran around naked and when i was 2, my pop got me a hat so i can look out the window' hehe.. it was so cool. then ed and kris ran up to him after the speech like kids with a new toy to snap pix with sgt maj. we had the chicken entree for dinner and it was a lot better than i expected. i got a 2nd serving and had a bite of cake before i went and boogied away on the dance floor with ssgt hodgen's wife and ssgt siphan's wife. we had a lot of fun and the girls we just a bit tipsy haha it was so funny when i was socializing with ivy (ssgt siphan's wife), and ssgt siphan turned to kris and said 'just cause they're friends doesn't make us friends - you wanna beer?' lol he's a hoot! overall it was an amazing night with amazing people and amazing friends and now we're back in good 'ol 29 and i can't wait to take off for thanksgiving weekend!

i'm going into my 12th wk today and my morning sickness is back to say the least. i should've went and got my prescription refilled earlier like last wk or at least a couple days ago but lazy me loves to sleep and let the world pass me by. i've also been eating lots of blueberry eggos. my eating habits are freaking me out cause i've been eating lots of dark colored foods so what if my baby is dark cause of the food i eat? i need to chill out but i'm home alone a lot and irrational thinking gets to me sometimes squeeee! for the first time i enjoy sleeping without the comfort of my blanket at night and sometimes i'd rather them be on the floor at all times while i sleep. why am i so weird? lol so now i'm freaking out cause i need my zofran to keep my insides in me and if i run out i'm so so screwed. ahhhh toilet here i come! nothing like passing out on the bathroom floor after a nice cleansing ;)

i think it's hilarious when kris wakes up in the morning and he's trying to be as quiet as he can so i can keep sleeping and i know everything that he's up to haha.. sucks to be such a light sleeper but i'm not sure if his big feet help him delicately maneuver without making a sound. i like to keep my eyes closed and focus on my sleep to get as much sleep as possible but the look on his face everytime i look up as he's approaching the bed trying to be as quiet as possible is pretty cute. happens just about everyday but he still looks as shocked as always cause he thinks he's gonna get away with it heehee so anyways the dr is trying to get me a referral for a 1st trimester screening, a 2nd trimester screening, and an anatomy scan all before january. seems like a lot but i'm excited cause it means i can see the baby more and they're all non invasive so it's not so bad :) before i fell asleep last night kris cuddled me and said thank you. i said for what? and said thank you for loving me, for being my wife, and for being the mother of my child. how can i not love him?
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so yesterday was veteran's day and i was so happy to just lounge around the house with my veteran and just enjoy ourselves :) i told kris that i always thought veteran's were old people that went to war and he said that he feels so old so i guess i was right kinda haha.. anyways it was a nice relaxing day and just enjoying each other after long days/weeks at the range so it was nice to wind down and pick up a little around the house. today kris is doing his swim qual for a higher score since he wants to do the martial arts instructor course, which i know would totally motivate him, so i hope he does well. then we're gonna go to la this afternoon for some yummy food :) i can't wait to eat all the delicious chinese style bbq we skipped out on last time and also kris really wants to go try orochon ramen in little tokyo which i think will be so much fun and fantastic :D i think we're both feeling the rush of becoming parents as we watch the baby grow and watching my belly get rounder but not quite a baby bump yet. it still looks like i ate too much. my dr also said that she will try to refer me out to another facility for the anatomy scan at the end of dec. before kris deploys so we're both super excited!

i finally got to see an OB today and finally after weeks of appointment setting and frustration i got in and got it done! the baby was moving around so much that the dr could barely get any decent photos but as soon as i looked at it on the monitor and told it so slow down, it stopped for a few sec.s and the dr snapped away and the photos a came out pretty well i must say :)




and i was on cloud 9 and of course there's gotta be some balance in the universe which sent me $245 broker than i was before i left the house. my right left tire practically blew out on me and by the time my car comp told me i had a flat, there was smoke and the smell of burning rubber everywhere. i didn't even make it 4blocks! of course i called wendy and she was so gracious that she drove all the way from yucca to palm springs to change my tire for me (her brother and a passerby actually did the handy work lol) and they also went with me to cathedral city to wait for almost 2hrs to get new tires put in and all that good stuff. so i have 2 new tires but less $245. next up i need my alignment checked and i should be good for the drive home to san fran in about a month or so. but for now i'm still happy and kris is coming home later from the range so maybe a nice hot bath and i'll let him oogle at the ultrasound pix :)

i went with jenna to palm desert for a little while this afternoon and it was fun to walk around but i forget how many rules retail has for the littlest things. drove me nuts when we were at zales today just trying to get her ring fixed. i mean how hard is it pull up records and go off the warranty plan? other than that it was fun catching up and talking about a little bit of everything and having someone to vent to and i love hearing her talk about her nephews cause they're so gosh darn cute :) my tummy's not feeling so fantastic today so i'm glad we didn't stay out too long. i came home and called tricare to get my referral faxed to my new ob's office so i wouldn't have to drive all the way there tmmrw only to find out they don't have it. doesn't hurt to be too cautious right? i'm glad i got an appt right away but i'm just worried i'll be sick to my stomach having to wake up that early. i've lost enough weight where my ball gown is looser on me now that when i bought it but my belly is just poking it's roundness out there so it's kinda discouraging to see.. i wasn't expecting to be so big already. it's so overwhelming. i called some old coworkers and talked for a few mins and they can't believe that within a year i met my husband, got married, quit my job, moved, and pregnant! i can't believe it either cause i used to say how i'll never have kids cause i don't like them and this and that. well i just ate my words. anyways since jenna showed me where the wendy's is i might just stop there for lunch tmmrw. i really love their chili and have a bowl of it everytime i go. it's so hearty and warming but idk if all that is good for my tummy. i miss my mom's alot already and i haven't even been home 2 days yet and kris is spending another night at work shooting.

with so much craziness i'm back in once piece and went for my follow up with my family dr and i have to say he's probably one of the best dr's i've ever had. i had a tiff with my ob office this morning when they had the nerve to ask me why i didn't call to make an appt earlier.. uh hello?! i've been trying to get an appt since i was 5wks pregnant and i'm just a couple days shy of 11 wks and you're asking me why?! your office had my referral even before tricare sent me the referral AND your entire office staff took a 2wk vacation... not like i could go down there and ask for an appt with everyone gone! so the lovely receptionist from my family dr's office called around to several diff dr's and managed to get me an appt this wed morning so hopefully it'll all go well and i can cancel all my appt's with this nutty ob. after dealing with such a rude staff i don't ever want to go see her! on another note, i got to hear the baby's heartbeat on the doppler today but i'm worried cause it went from 164 bpm to 120 in less than a wk so i hope the dr on wed will do an ultrasound to double check everything. crossing my fingers and trying to breathe.

ive been so frustrated trying to get an appt to see my OB since i was 5wks preggos and now i'm almost 11wks and i'm just now getting an appt to see the MA to put my chart together and another appt 1wk later to see the dr herself. i'm so so frustrated. after that stint at the ER for a threatened miscarriage i will go down and raise hell if something goes wrong. ahhhhh! but on a lighter note, this time change has given me an extra hour that i can smile about :) kris and i cuddled for a full hour since we're both wide awake with over 8hrs of sleep and just joked and smiled and laughed. what a great way to start the day. i can't say i like being back in the desert but it's definitely nice to be back with kris. lovely :)

i just got home last night from my mom's and after nice relaxing wk i'm home in the desert. it was so depressing driving up the hill cause i really don't like it here but it's nice to be back with my hubby and have him take care of me. daylight savings time also was today so it's been nice to lounge and sleep all day and it's REALLY nice that kris doesn't have an early day tmmrw which after 2wks of 0330 wake ups, this is a big relief. i've been feeling a bit yucky today but i hope i can hang in there til i get back to my mom's in a couple wk for thanksgiving.

i've been sleeping and napping a lot and i feel a lot better which i am extremely thankful for and makes me totally relieved. i woke up this morning and i can't believe that i'll be going home in a couple days and yes, i'm excited to see kris but i'm gonna miss all the good food i've been eating cause i'm having regular movements every 2-3days which is alot better than once every 7-10days. harmon made the analogy that i'm starting to look like a bell cause when i lost the 10+lbs over morning sickness, i lost it all up top but i'm rounding out in my lower abdominals so it looks like ate too much and my mom says my ass is getting too big. lovely hmmm? none of my pants fit anymore and the largest pair of jeans that has extra stretch in it sits at the waist so it's not working out too well. a very awkward stage to be in lol

so i'm at my mom's enjoying myself very much... almost too much lol.. but out of a scare i also got a very amazing gift. i was feeling under the weather a bit and was starting to get cramping so i went to the ER where they said i have a threatened miscarriage but they'll do an ultrasound to double check and to see where the baby is. so i went in and waited and waited and waited some more and i was finally wheeled off to ultrasound where for the first time i heard my baby's heartbeat going strong and fluttering like a butterfly at 167 BPM! baby also has grown to a whopping 2.66 CM which seems incredibly small but considering that baby looks like a gummy bear right now with a big head, and heart about the same size lol and stubby hands and feet with fingers and toes moving around and waving hi to mommy just about took my breath away. i am so amazed that i am able to be blessed with such an amazing gift and i can't believe that this wonderful baby all ours. the dr felt that even though i'm not feeling well the fact that the baby has such a strong heart beat and that there's lots of movement and no bleeding or anymore cramping so i just need lots of bedrest until further notice which i'm more than happy to do! i'm loving all this food my mom is feeding me but kris swears i'm eating too much lol i'm ready to go home and let him talk to baby and give my belly plenty of kisses. i know he misses us so much and we miss him too! mmmmm happy family :) staying positive and optimistic!