i went to the car seat safety class tonight at eden and it was so informative! not to mention i love my car cause when i bought it wasn't thinking about kids but i loved that it's rated one of the highest in it's class for safety and it ranks up there with the bmw 5 series which is it's european equivalent. and now that i have to get ready for the baby, it has everything i need to install the car seat safely and properly. makes me feel like i did a great job even pre pregnancy... like a maternal instinct was instilled in me from way back when lol.. i just need some nursing things and travel sized toiletries and my bag is good to go. then my friends offered to sit with me at the laundromat so i can can do all the baby's laundry in 1 load instead of 5 at home which i'm so so glad to have the help! i'm going into my 3rd trimester and i can really feel the weight coming on.. i mean i'm heaving just walking the mall for a couple hours. also my glucose test is tmmrw so i'm praying that everything's ok. nice and hectic morning!

the deployment half way party for out battalion is coming up in a few wks and i'm really excited cause it just reaffirms that time is passing and that he will be coming home soon! some crazy ups and downs in the last couple days but i'm gonna take a deep breath and move forward. i hate it when people write to checks out to mr and mrs *insert our last name* cause kris isn't here, the bank has to double verify everything and since his name isn't on my acct it's really hard to get pass the deposit at the counter part. drive thru atm right? i love them when i'm too lazy to run out of the car lol oh wells, gotta love it. anyways our ex landlord finally decided to cut us a check but $100 short of our orig deposit but what's the point in pursuing it if the check clears? it'll cost me just that much if not more to try to recover the difference. ehhh i'm so over it. never again will i deal with shady people like them.

i've got just about everything i need for the baby. just the last minute nursing items i need to order and have shipped or maybe i'll just take myself to the mall lol.. next up is my hospital bag and again i have everything minus the nursing items. woohoo! my mom and i are on the fence with each other about a boppy pillow, a stroller frame vs travel system and whether kris is capable of taking care of me post partum or not. i just love how we disagree on things like this. but i do have a breast pump waiting for me just gotta go pick it up when my mom has time and i'm gonna order the extra parts to make sure 100% its' sanitary. i'm 3 months early but i hope nicholas is at least 1-2 wks early so i can have him at least 6-7 wks old before our big move date in july. it's raining again after a couple days of intense sunshine and there's even a possibility of snow from 1000 ft to sea level by tmmrw. gotta love this nutty weather.

i'm 25.5 wks and finally a belly shot of me in something other than a tank haha.. i was on my way to church and was feeling really good about this new shirt :) love love love!

nicholas is shaking his booty to classical music... lovely lol it's been so rainy lately that all i've been doing is playing tetris and have classical music on loud so i don't have to use my belly buds. nicholas is pretty active and is a light sleeper like me. but he falls asleep just as fast so i hope it carries over when he's born. i hope i'll have a bit early and that delivery will be easy. i had a dream last night that after he was born, i took him shopping and he's so good he's quiet and listens and knows me so well even though he's so little. it's crazy but it's the first dream i had of him where he's a baby and i just woke up feeling all happy :)

there's so much regret in my past. and sometimes when i think about it, all it does is hurt me. i wonder what if. what if i was more patient. what if i listened more. what if i looked deeper? i regret so much. how everything unraveled. i wish some things didn't happen, and i wish i was able to have things turn out differently. if only i've done something different my life could've turned out so differently.

i've decided to try the world of finance and see if i can make it. i'm gonna start school for my life insurance license soon and i hope to work for a good financial group to help people build their net worth and to help them save to build a financial house. i feel as if, if someone like me who makes so little or none at all can build my own net worth then anyone that makes minimum wage can. because why do we work so hard for a paycheck to pay our bills with, yet we don’t pay ourselves? if we only paid ourselves like we paid our bills, rent, or groceries we would be able to save and not be in so much debt. if we work for our money, we need to make it work for us.

bra extenders and emjoi epilator came in the mail today. i'm really excited since this'll mean i'll be out of sports bras for awhile and i'll be nice and smooth :) 25wks today and only 15 more to go!

valentine's day wasn't as bad as everyone bashed it to be just cause kris isn't home. but you know what? he texted me and i woke up to a love message and lots of sweet nothings so i'm happy! and he also bought me a brand new pillow top mattress but he just doesn't know it yet lol.. SO COMFY!! i had a full frame here at my mom's but because of the time constraints i didn't have time to get a new mattress for it so i used a twin instead and flushed the gap with body pillows but it wasn't bad. however, i do miss rolling around in bed and i went ahead and looked at sear's outlet since i had the gift cards from the heroes at home gift registry from christmas left over and i figured why not. they're also the cheapest place i found for just a mattress! so i searched and i came upon a serta pillowtop medium firm mattress that's reconditioned. and it turned out to be just a floor model for 2wks before it got replaced with another one! because of that a $5oo mattress was mine for $63! it was still packaged and has a 5yr warranty on it! so why not? hehe now i have a mattress that fits right and i know when kris comes home for leave with the baby i'd need it anyways and i hate rushing at the last minute. i know he'll love a nice warm bed to lay in instead of a twin with body pillows hahaha

apparently after this weekend everyone is going to hell lol.. my family went out to dimsum for my cousins' bday and she tried to be like me and told her mom she's pregnant and her mom said 'i'll kill you' our other aunt said 'jesus teaches you to not kill people...' and my cousin said 'yeah it's a sin, but if you do kill me, we'll both go to hell together' my aunt's face was 'i'll kill you bitch' hahahaha and after i've been out of the house this entire weekend my mom made a comment to me about how it makes me look bad since i'm married. i told her that 'jesus teaches people you shouldn't gossip and to be a model citizen... be careful or you'll go to hell' she says 'i'm gonna kill you' and i tell her 'he's listening...' hahahah it hasn't gotten old yet :P

i’ve been walking a lot in hopes to make my labor easier but what i’ve been mistaking for cramps turned out to be the early signs of contractions and i need to back off my walking before i pop nicholas out at 24wks or put myself on bed rest for the remainder of my pregnancy. pretty scary and so i’m backing off. and walking doesn’t reduce labor pains, but it helps you to better endure labor. woot woot for high risk. blergh.

found a new church in my area and i’m gonna try on sunday to see if they’re a fit for me

hopefully if they are, i can get my confirmation going

then i can get info on how to get baby nicholas baptized too! pretty excited and i can’t wait :D

gotta read the estate planning book, and draft my will worksheet. gonna be lots. of. fun.

something clicked and i grew a love for red velvet that over rides my common sense when i'm craving it this bad. i went to every single store i could think of in town to see if they would have it and an hour and countless stores later, i finally a red velvet roll cake and red velvet cupcakes at the last and final store i went to!! i was soooo happy i did a happy dance lol.. i got the cupcakes plus some chocolate truffle brownies. the cashier looked at me like i was crazy but f them. i really don't care cause i've wanted red velvet for soooo long and finally the craving hit me hard enough that i went out this late to find some. next on my list is probably a fat juicy in n out burger with animal style fries with EXTRA sauce. i'm such a fatty but i haven't eaten like this in soooo long.. i'm sure a little indulgence is satisfying enough :) the baby will be here in less than 4 months (as determined by my due date) but i would love for him to come earlier especially if kris gets home with AP and gets to me earlier. cause by that time i'll be too big to wanna be pregnant any longer and i know kris is dying to meet his son already.

i watched the lost valentine tonight and it was so good but a definite tear jerker!

The story follows the characters of a journalist, Susan Allison (Hewitt) working on a profile of a woman, Caroline Thomas (White) whose husband naval aviator Lt. Neil Thomas was declared MIA during World War II. Mrs. Thomas finds silence for sixty-six years from the Department of the Navy. Allison with the help of a United States Senator (she did an unrelated story on the senator) who puts pressure on the Navy, who locates the family of the gunner on Thomas' airplane. The now deceased Billings' son tells of the crash and of Morang, a Filipino guerilla who rescued the wounded naval aviators. Andrew Hawthorne goes to the Phillipines and sets up a teleconference for the aged Caroline and elderly Morang. The story of the fate of Lt. Thomas, Morang says he was badly wounded, but wanted his more seriously injured gunner, Billings to get medical aide. When Thomas had recovered, deep behind Japanese lines, he joins the Filipino Guerillas. During a patrol, Lt. Thomas is killed by a Japanese sniper. Morang knows the location of the burial site of Lt. Thomas. The US Navy goes to the 1944 grave site and returns the remains and effects to the United States. Caroline is given Neil's wallet and dogtags. For Neil's bravery and courage, Caroline is given his Navy Cross, Silver Star and Purple Heart. Lt. Thomas is buried by the US Navy, with full military honors.

it's an incredible love story and i love it! not to mention it betty white and jennifer love hewitt stars in it and i'm fan of both! it's such a sad yet romantic movie. it's a 2 in one love story and you never lose track of one story to follow the other. it was so well thought out and written. absolutely terrific!

i went in and got my 23wk 4d ultrasound done and my oh my does nicholas look more like kris lol maybe he'll look like kris but have my featues.. who knows right? anyways here's a sneak at our bebe :D