i never thought i could ever miss someone this much. i'm not sure what it is. maybe it's being confined to the house cause i can't do much anyways if i go out, or if i'm being hormonal. but i'm just gonna cross it all off and say it's cause of kris. he makes me like this. no matter how much i tried to prepare myself for this deployment everytime my phone rings i jump and pick it up right away. my phone is officially glues to my hands 24/7 even though kris thought it was bad before he left - it's only gotten worse. i'm slowly getting used to him being gone and i'm trying to work myself into a routine but so far it's only been the first wk and with all these doctor appts to start up it's not happening yet. but hopefully soon. my mom's trying to give me errands to run and things to do but i find myself daydreaming about the man of my dreams. my sister got me movies and chinese dramas so it's helped for a couple days but i can't be inside all the time. i'm gonna start walking down to the smoothie shop up the road and back if i have to. i need to keep my sanity. anywho, i thought i was all prepared but this tug of love and miss-ness is taking me by surprised since i thought i had it all under control. but i know we can do this.