so in a few hrs kris will be long gone and i can let the wait really begin. as i've told him over and over the anticipation really is the worse part. for him leaving and coming home. the time with him just flew by and i can't wait to have my best friend back. i know that babies have a mind of their own as to when they're ready to debut into the world, but each time i go in to see my DR, they push the date out a day then another. now i'm at june 5th for my due date and i hope our little man stays in as close to as his daddy will come home. everyday we write love letters to each other and i hope that we can look back and see how far we've come. i'm glad i'm keeping a blog and kris is also gonna try to journal on his laptop and in a journal he bought. he promised to journal something special just for baby nicholas for him when he's older to read to see how much his daddy did love him even though he was away. i have an interview lined up for a part time job in fremont tmmrw so i hope it goes well. i'm ready to start getting busy and try to be normal and make time fly til he comes home.