after about 16hours of sleep i could still use some more sleep and a bit of hopeful wishing never hurt right? my referral to an ob took a shit on me cause that ob is out until nov 8th and i need to see someone asap cause morning sickness is kicking my ass. i really wish i can just calm and soothe myself so i'm not feeling so yucky all the time. having a terrible time with that and i can't help but cry and cry cause it's the only thing i can still control. it's such a terrible feeling. i want to get better. i need to get better. holy cow and kris is leaving for a wk to pendleton so that's gonna be fun hmmm? psych!