feeling so queasy today... not much has changed except i'm just queasy. i can't eat or drink or it all comes up so i just sleep and take my meds now. i felt so guilty cause last night i told kris i don't want to do this anymore and i just want this darn thing out of me. i know some people want it so bad but to be sick like this all the time is just not worth it to me. i now i'm talking crazy and just being selfish but i can't help but feel this way. it's really driving me up the wall. i can't even have a sane day where i can say 'time out, let me eat some cereal with REAL milk'. it's a bit much to be honest.