kris is finally home from the field and i can't wait to go on leave soon! there's a lot of packing, cleaning, laundry and last minute details that needs to be done in the next several days but we can do it! the guys have tomorrow off which is really nice and it means for an even shorter work week! nick has been teething and the drool is heavier than ever, the crankiness is oozing, and him slapping me and himself when he's mad only adds to the chaos. i love having all the extra time with my honey :)

nick has always rejected a pacifier from day one and a few days ago while i was rushing to make him a bottle and in an attempt to keep him quiet for a bit longer i grabbed a pacifier and put it in his mouth. then he was hooked. and he's been on it since for nap time and bed time. granted he'll take the bottle but sometimes he just wants the sucking motion to soothe him. just a comfort thing. whatever. i know we're half way to cutting him off bottles soon but whatever gives us all sleep and keeps nick happy.

it's finally decemeber and in a couple wks we go on leave to my in laws! it will be nick's first time going cross country and i am so excited for the rest of the family to meet him. we took our family portraits while my mom and sister was here and i love how they turned out. i also found a pet sitter for hannah cause a stressed and sick dog in the car for 30+ hours is no bueno. i really miss having jenn next door and we have new neighbors on both sides of us but they're just so good at hiding i have no idea who's there. kris also have his dates for school and hopefully in the next 6mo.s or so he gets orders so we finally know where we're going! i was driving to the PX today and i saw a whole line of white buses which means a homecoming! how lucky the families are to be reunited with their marine after so long. always tugged my heart strings.

Nicholas is 6 mo now and how life has changed in the months following his birth. Thanksgiving was a lot of fun. My mom came down on Halloween and has stayed til now and my sister drove down last wk to spend Thanksgiving with us. My cousin Donna drove up from San Diego to spend the holiday with us and we had so much fun. We roasted a chicken, had roast pork belly, and the YMCA on base was giving away either Turkey or Ham dinners and I chose the Ham one. It came with a honey Ham, green bean casserole and scalloped potatoes. My mom made lettuce wraps, and sticky rice fried rice. There was a lot of food the few of us but we enjoyed it all. Nick had his festive Thanksgiving Turkey hat that great Grandma Laura sent for him. his half birthday also fell on the holiday so we celebrated with new toys for him and so far his favorite is a fish shaped teething toy. He's discovered his feet and loves playing with them! He loves to roll all over the floor trying to keep up with his feet. He's sitting up with less help from us and definitely becoming more of an independent sitter! He loves his baby food but only when its super textured so we mix a lot of baby cereal with it to make it nice and thick for him. He loves to smack on bananas and whole grains of rice. He's a pro at eating his Gerber graduate puffs and actually prefers those over his first favorite snack,  the rice rusk mum mums. He's in 12-18mo clothes already... 20lbs and 27 inches when he got weighed last a few wks ago. He really is growing so fast. When someone waves and says hi to him I swear he says hi back! Except its more of a drooly smile and he goes "uuuugh" he loves to giggle and always laughs. He's such a happy baby! And I get so mesmerized by him at times that sometimes I just lay in bed awake to scroll through photos of him. I'm so in love with my little boy!

everyday is a new day. each day brings new adventures. and it's up to you how you go about your day. you can make it wonderful or have it rain on your parade. sometimes there are circumstances beyond your control but you can always see it as a blessing in disguise. i don't understand some of the wives make themselves hermits and then complain about having nothing to do or not having friends to hang out with. you really don't need to be bff's with everybody but it doesn't hurt to smile and say hi when you walk past someone while you're out for walk, or make small take at the dog park. when i walk and i see people hanging out in their drive way i like to wave and say hi. who knows what doors that'll open up. i've met so many amazing people just starting off like that and i wouldn't change it. you don't have to be a complete extrovert to do it either! remember smiling takes less work than frowning.

i've been spending several hours a day at the dog park and taking my time when i walk. i love the fresh air and talking to everyone. it really brightens up my day. i haven't gotten baby fever yet for baby #2 but i love how everyone keeps egging us on for another one. it's interesting seeing everyone coo over babies that aren't their's lol. another wife in our unit and i have decided we are going to get together and throw a nice thanksgiving dinner for us, some other couples and the single marines that wants to join us. i think that it'll be really nice and i'm so excited to be able to plan and execute. i bought several more photo frames so i've gotta find the time to put them all up but i know i can do it :)

kris reenlisted next wk and we are now waiting on orders. there were a few spoofs at the actual ceremony but overall the kids were great and it went very well :) this month will be kinda hectic i think but so it will be through new years. im trying to go home and visit family while kris is away at the viper but poor hannah might get sick on the car ride. planning on giving her some gingersnap cookies or a bit of benadryll to knock her out. i'm also thinking about subscribing for the sunday paper just for the coupons but i hardly use any of them. this last insert from p&g was awesome! lots of make up stuff i love :D i've gotta get back on track and get serious about walking everyday with the ball coming up in about a month. it's crunch time! need to keep losing weight.

nicholas is a whopper now. 4mo.s old and 26.5 in and 20lbs! he rolls, scoots, and is trying very very hard to crawl.

he's also started on solids for a few days now and it's a balance trying to get him to love it. gotta make it fun? heh.

the neighbors are moving tomorrow and kris really likes them and i know we will miss them very very much. i hope our next neighbors are just as nice and welcoming as the glotz's were. i cut my bangs again and i look like a little girl. i'm contemplating about ordering a chickaboom palette. they're palettes is a pressed mineral powder and for $30 +shipping.taxes etc it's about $50 but i get a giant palette vs ordering from elf and it's $3 per color which adds up to way too much considering i get over 50+ colors from chickaboom. i hope my bangs grows out good by the time the ball comes around so i can have my hair all purdy :D

kris' reenlistment package has been approved as of yesterday and now we are waiting on orders to pcs! he will reenlist in 2wks or so. his career planner said that we will move before he goes to school next spring and that means we will move before january 2012! i'm definitely excited :D i also decided to have a waterfall french braid done for the ball to go with my dress! everything has been falling into place and i thank God everyday for it.

i've been on the body by vi diet for 10days now and i've lost 8lbs on it. i also had 2 cheat days for the weekend and i gained 2.5lbs over the san diego weekend. otherwise it'd be close to 11lbs i would've lost! i am very very excited to lose all this yucky baggage and look and feel good again!

this past weekend we took a 3day trip to see kris' hs buddy mitch. somehow mitch and his wife lauren are now the godparents of nicholas. very interesting because mitch was terrified to hold nick when we first got to his place lol and he was very gracious to let us stay with him for the duration of our trip. friday evening kris nick and i found a really good korean bbq ayce place in riverside which was super bomb and even better cause it's so close to home! then saturday we went to the zoo and kelsey came met up with us and we had a blast walking our buns off! too bad all the animals i had wanted to see were all sleeping cause the sun came out and it was 80 by the time noon hit. boo hoo... too bad so sad! saturday night we went to old town san diego and had dinner at cafe coyote. the wait wasn't as bad as usual but the food and service was the worse we've ever experienced there! and we go there quite a bit! the pitcher of margarita didn't even give the boys a decent buzz lol sunday kris and i found a really nice bfast place in downtown carlsbad called don's country kitchen and it was $18 after tax and tip for giants breakfasts for the both of us! that's pretty awesome if you ask me. then we shopped around in vista and went to costco and only spent $40 which is an accomplishment in itself lol we went back to mitch's and the boys went for a hair cut while i got kebobs ready for a cook out with mitch and his neighbors. we had a blast and his neighbors were really nice. we left a bit later than we anticipated but we got to see my cousin donna for a little while so it was all worth it :)

today was the first time went far away from home all alone with nick. i was sitting around bored and decided i wanted to go to costco which is about 90 mins each way from 29. it wasn't the brightest idea but i got to walk, shop, drive, listen to music, listen to nick babble to himself and we both got to relax a bit. he was so good on this ride he didn't cry at all! the past week i've been slacking and haven't been walking as i should be, so to do make it up kris is taking us to big bear to hike :) i can't wait to see hannah hike and enjoy herself. it'll be a nice change from walking the pavement everyday. this 96 is half gone and i've made a giant batch of pho ga. then maybe next wk i'll make bun rieu. i just want an excuse to make some egg rolls lol i've lost inches and 2 pant sizes! so i've gotta get with the diet and walk walk walk! nick melts my heart and he smiles and giggles whenever you talk to him or smile at him. and he knows his sleepy time routine so i hope that he'll sleep through his teething. he's become quite the drool monster lately. i also managed to get kris hooked on jager bombs so i got a case of red bull from costco today too. just gonna let it be late enough to do some damage hehe..

nick has come to another milestone! he has learned how to grab!
and boy is he grabbing everything! from plastic keys to blankets to my hair, shirts, and glasses. my little boy is grabbing! it might not seem like such a big deal but it is when he can entertain himself while watching his arms as he practices hand eye coordination and i absolutely love it! that pose is what kris calls driving the bus lol

here he is cheesing away on his play mat...



and we also survived the long trip from 29 to fresno and back all in 1 day! here he is looking so GQ!

so i am trying to win nicholas a free photo shoot with ambershiree photography and he is currently in 2nd place thanks to everyone who did us the favor and voted for him. anyone else who hasn't done so can go to her page on FB, go to the free photo shoot contest and like nicholas' photo by clicking the like link under his pix. he is the 2nd pic and he is wearing green overalls :) today was definitely an eventful day. kiki finally came to visit after what seems like forever and finally got to see and hold nick for the first time. i got my favorite lavender scentsy bar (YUM) and caught up on some things. we left for a little while to cinnabon and somehow when we got back, hannah was missing and i thought i had put her in the backyard or she was sleeping with kris and didn't think much of it. then i started calling for her and no response! finally i realized that she's gone missing and i no way in my house. i texted my neighbor jennifer and her and kels and the girls drove through our housing area looking for hannah while i stayed with our babies and thank goodness someone called me letting me know that they had her in their yard. that she had wandered over to their house right up the street and didn't know where to go. i was so thankful that i always keep her collar on her and that she has updated tags with all our contact information. i was scared to death that she was hit or somehow got off base and i couldn't be happier that she was found and is now home with us! i really need to watch the front door wheni keep it open cause i realized that if she pushes on the screen door hard enough it will give away and let her through. she doesn't just run out when i'm home and the door's open so i thought it was odd. and i also thought it was odd because i walk her almost everyday and she seemed lost and didn't know her way home. i always thought dogs had a good sense of direction and home. all aftrernoon she stayed far away from the front door since she's been back so hopefully she learned her lesson! and i definitely learned mine too!

i finally retired my acura tl and got me a new acura mdx. we were strapped for room and comfort for a growing family and it was well within our budget. kris saw the color and the leather is a grey leather which was a plus for him. he has something against tan leather i think?? idk lol but my tl had tan leather and it drove him nuts lol anyways we have so much room and the entertainment options are amazing. i never thought i'd be able to get one since it's one of my favorite suv's that i pretty much fantasize about owning. i was looking at lower end cars that offer about the same features that we are looking for but after doing some research... and lots of shopping this is what we've concluded. i am super happy with our purchase and the car is seriously an anti theft car. for what it is, i don't think it'd be possible to even make the car leave the driveway without one of the owners haha that thing is crazy nuts. but hannah will have room in the back and we will be comfy with the baby and still have plenty of room left over. also, nick has been sleeping through the night lately and it's been amazing. a full 10-11hrs of sleep uninterrupted is pretty much awesome :) he's such a good baby and lots of fun esp when he's not crying lol love him! i also know how fortunate i am to be able to get the things i want and not have anyone hold me back or say no just because of finances. i know we're not rich or super well off but we live comfortably and have all that we need. i just wish everyone could have this same feeling of content. i'm counting my blessings.

nicholas received his 2mo shots yesterday and i think i cried more than he did lol they didn't have the big all in one needles so he got 5 separate shots. my poor baby! but i took him home and let him splash in the tub for awhile then put him down to nap. he slept most of the day away and i got to help one of my friend's brother learn how to drive for his driving test today and to say the least he passed and got his licenses so that was pretty neat. nick also slept in his crib for the first time last night and slept 11 hrs! nothing like a well rested momma :) he was pretty cranky today and was a bit warm but my awesome neighbor jennifer lent me her baby swing and nick seems to enjoy it when he is ok with me not holding him. he dozes off in it but never stays fully asleep so i think i'll try to put him down in his crib again tonight in a bit. the time in the field started and here we are again a year later reliving EMV together. thank goodness there's no morning sickness this time around haha.. kris also interviewed for his new mos that he wants to reenlist to earlier this wk and he aced it! so all he's waiting for is HQ to approve it and to wait on orders. i'm so proud of him and what he's doing. my mom also surprised me and she and my sister will be here tmmrw evening for the whole weekend. i'm so excited and it really made my day.

nicholas just keeps growing. he's out of his 3mo clothes but in limbo cause his 3-6mo clothes are still too big and same thing with his diapers! he's in size 2 diapers now and weighs over 14lbs. he's quite a handful to carry around already and he's not even 2 mos old yet! anyways kris submitted his reenlisment packet and hopefully we'll hear something by the end of the fall or he'll have to extend until next may to hear back from his 2nd and 3rd choices. we are looking into getting a bigger family car cause my little acura isn't cutting it anymore. kris so his charger so we'll save money since he doesn't drive it half the time. he's away more than he's ever home to drive that thing. so now my car is his daily driver and i get a new car. but that can't come soon enough! having a car is awesome but i'm so used to having my car paid off that tacking on a car payment just isn't very appealing right now. plus a rise in our insurance cause of a new car. penny pinching is awesome but you gotta give some to get some.

my 2 favorite boys in the whole wide world :D

sometimes i wonder if nicholas thinks i'm a good mom. i don't understand all his cries or cues so i hope he's a happy baby. if babies never laugh or smile how do you know they're happy?

a wk ago we got a new dog named hannah and she is a greyhound lab mix.

she is the color of a yellow lab with a giant lab head on a tiny skinny greyhound body. the most comical looking thing but also the sweetest dog.

she avoids nick and when i bring nick to her she sniffs him a couple of times then retreats. it's like she's scared of him lol... i think it's his crying that makes her weary of him sometimes lol cause nick will cry and hannah will grunt and go back to napping.
nick is 12.5lbs now and growing.


he also hasn't slept much in the last 24hrs or so and right now he's been asleep for right over an hour or so and thank goodness cause his crying was finally starting to get to me. he's fed, clean, bathed and is rocked in my arms 24/7 yet he's still crying. i think he might be very constipated since he's been on strictly formula cause i have laryngitis and my medicine doesn't allow me to breastfeed for 10days. it's day 3 and i think all the formula is making him cranky.. poor baby. kris was nice enough to get me amaretto creamer for coffee that i never drink and make me brownies with cookies baked in on top of them! talk about delish! my lack of sleep doesn't also help much with me wanting to pick up the house. finally got to field daying the house today and it felt so good to have everything spic and span with everything in place.




i definitely need some sleep and lots of make up!!

nicholas turned one month old last friday and he's already 11.5lbs! my little baby boy isn't so little anymore. he's in the 90 percentile and growing! little man is eating more, staying awake longer and sleeping just as much. he amazes me and i love watching him grow. soon i can't leave him on the couch anymore all alone.. he sure knows who his momma is and he's a definite momma's boy!

nicholas likes to scrunch his face up and it makes him look like a little old man.. it's the cutest ugly face i've ever seen lol.. he hates baths and diaper changes.. i hope that this isn't an early sign that my baby will love to get and stay dirty when he gets older. he also loves to eat extra much at night vs the day.. this might also forecast midnight kitchen raids when he's older. oh the joys! i've started nicholas on formula just a couple days ago as a supplement since my brain is completely nonexistent running on 1.5-2hrs of sleep at a time.. it's my cheat but while i have all the help i can get during the day, at night i'm on my own. so i pump for him during the day and feed him breastmilk every other feeding during the day and at nights and he has a couple bottles of formula throughout the day. i hope this doesn't jeopardize his health :/ but happy momma makes for a happy baby right? and i had no idea i would burn through wipes and diapers so fast. only wk 2 and we've gone through almost 200 wipes, and 3 packs of diapers already. this boy just eats and eats!

so kristopher went back to work and i'm up here in the bay area with my mom for a few more weeks until nicholas is a month old.. as much as i hate the desert and the heat, i hate being away from kris even more. my sleep schedule is completely wack and i get really quiet and lonely everytime we're away from each other. maybe i'm too dependent on him or maybe i just love him so much that anytime away from each other feels like wasted time. i've spent the last couple days by myself taking care of nicholas and it's been a bit rough but i have my mom's a sister help to give me a break to shower, eat or nap. nicholas is staying awake for longer periods of time now but still within a few minutes he'll pass out. he also got circumcised a couple days ago so once he's all healed up, he'll resume his tummy time. his neck is pretty strong being as young as he is but it doesn't hurt to get a nice work out in. nicholas also got his newborn photos taken by a new photographer that i found and she did a decent job considering she's new. these were taken when he was a week old.

dear kristopher,

thank you for being there for me through the good and bad. now that we have started this new chapter in our lives, i can honestly tell you that you're an amazing father with even just the short time that we've been parents. you always put our son first no matter how tired you are and you did an amazing job at the hospital being my support and rock. on top of that the sleepless nights so far with more to come you've been nothing but amazing. i love how he looks so much like you even though my pregnancy and labor was hellish - he could at least look more like me just for renting my uterus haha. i don't tell you enough how much i love you and i know i'm not as affectionate as you are, but know that i love you more than words can describe. seeing you with our son melts my heart and i can't wait to watch him grow and watch us grow as parents and as a family. keep up the good work honey, i love you.

nicholas made his debut early on may 24 at 1:29pm. i've been talking about wanting to pop nicholas out any day and how i was ready to have him already but when it came down to it, i was panicked and wasn't so sure if i was ready to have him out right then and there. i had just went to bed at 4am monday morning and not even an hour later just shy of 5am my water broke and it took me a while to realize that my water broke. i actually stood there dripping for a few minutes trying to comprehend what just happened and trying to wake up. by the time i came to, i was almost frantic. my water broke and i wasn't having any contractions so i was given cervidil to help efface me and it took 12 hours to bring me to 50%.

this was before the pitocin


kristopher trying to get comfy during the long wait

by the time 10pm rolled around, i was given pitocin and out of the 20 levels i was given i only made it to level 7 before i couldn't sleep through my contractions anymore and despite my option for an epidural i tried to hold off but by the time i got to level 10, i could barely sleep through my contractions. and to be honest, running on no sleep for almost 24hours i was pretty desperate to get some sleep in my life so i finally asked for an epidural which let me sleep at least 4hours and my cervix finally dilated a whole whopping 2cm. 2-3 hours later, i was dilated to 4cm, and by noon i was 10cm and 99% effaced and the pressure from nicholas trying to get out was so great that the epidural didn't help much. by the time i was ready to push i had been in the hospital for over 32 hours, kris and i were both cranky and delirious from lack of sleep and poor kris had to put 2 chairs and an ottoman together to even be able to sleep.

before i started pushing...

i started pushing around 1230 and even with my epidural turned off an hour before i started pushing, i didn't feel him coming down or crowning or anything. his head was just big enough to where he couldn't crown and the labor nurse said that i was getting tired and to go ahead and give me an episiotomy. so i watched my dr snip me.. the scissors moving and as soon as she snipped, nicholas came flying out. the doctor put him on my chest and he was so heavy it knocked the wind out of me. didn't help that i was delirious and had low oxygen too.. but i looked at my dr and said he's huge!

when he was first placed on me

they weighed him and my dr and i were both staring at the scale and were both equally stunned that he was outside of the 7lb range as she predicted let alone 8lbs 6oz! i felt so bad because i was so tired and had lost over 1L of blood that i was out of it by the time everything was said and done. the nurse brought nicholas to me and i didn't even have the strength to lift my arms to hold him :( but the nurse held him to me and let him nurse even while i was fainted in the bed. i fainted 5 times over 2 days and spent most of the time in bed eating and drinking constantly so that i'd be able to be strong enough to hold him.

my first time holding nicholas

nicholas was born with a fever since i spiked a fever about an hour or so before i started pushing because my water broke so early on and he was also born with mild jaundice so he was kept in the nursery for the first 2days or so and he was allowed to leave the nursery only for me to nurse him. i was glad to have such an amazing team of nurses take care of me in labor and postpartum but honestly by the 2nd night i was getting super restless and ready to leave the hospital cause i was being checked up on every 20 mins or so and it was so exhausting trying to be nice and pleasant to everyone but i guess i was so nice that someone actually asked me if this was my 2nd baby because i bounced back so fast cause i guess most postpartum women are really cranky??


trying to figure out who was the one in labor lol


getting ready to go home


cuddling with daddy at home :)


3 days old

so my dr's appointment went fairly well. i have to say i left a bit disappointed knowing that the baby's head has dropped so much that my dr doesn't have a problem touching his head anymore during an internal exam but i'm not dilated or effaced at all. and she pretty much said i could be a wk late looking based off of my cervix but she would rather not induce me and let it happen naturally. i am worried that he'll be too big after 40 wks and i'll have an episiotomy which i really don't want so since the weather is clearing up, i want to go for a nice walk everyday and try to move things along. not to mention i really miss kris and i'm not sure if another 1-2wks apart would make it easier. another thing that's really been riding on me is that we won't have a last date together as a couple before parenthood and i'm gonna really miss the alone time we enjoy so much together. so i have a plan all set up in case the baby decides to wait to get induced and brought into the world with drugs. but here i am at 38 wks...

i had my birthday a couple days ago.. mayra and wendy came by my house before i left to san fran and surprised me with an amazing red velvet cake!
i'm also back home at my mom's and got to spend some family time :) now kris just left to go back to base and i'm stuck here waiting for nicholas to make his debut. i hope he comes soon cause i can't take walks up here since it's been pouring and overcast the whole time i've been home so far. i'm just anxious to get him out so i can move back to 29 and fall into a routine. we're about 2 wks out right now but i would have no problem with him coming earlier. i hope my doctor will tell me some good news when i see her tuesday such as 'you're going into labor now!' wouldn't that be exciting? hehe

since my last post, kris came home deployment, we got all moved into our new home on base, and i had a pre term labor scare. everything's wearing me out within minutes... i'm so uncomfortable but i know the end is near! i'm having regular contractions but i'm not dilating at all... which means it's just a waiting game now. kris is excited to be home for all of this but he got sick last wk and hasn't been feeling too hot since. i hope it goes away by friday cause he's driving me back to my mom's since i don't want to deliver in the desert. my bed is too tall for me to crawl in and out of and i get so frustrated doing so... i'm so heavy i can barely get myself out of the tub or the floor.. basically when i'm sitting i can hardly get back up.. super embarrassing! i have a huge wave of fatigue wash over me and i can't even keep my eyes open for more than a few hours now so i really really hope this baby comes soon and i can start a new chapter in our lives!

this deployment is less than a handful of days from being over and there's so much to do! i'm packing through out the day today but seeing how i've broken so many things already there doesn't seem to be a whole lot left to pack. i'm making the drive to 29 tomorrow with my mom and sister in 2 cars to move most of the things there and to sign a lease for a house on friday! my mom's gonna be cooking up a storm and my cold is finally looking like it'll clear up but i'm about 70% done with my bottle of robitussin and my throat is still really sore and i'm still coughing up green cottage cheese looking flem. pretty gross. i know. my friend is gonna swing by this evening to tetris everything into both cars and we'll be leaving first thing tomorrow morning! so so excited :D cause the last time kris saw my belly it was almost nonexistent. now i'm so big! gaaahhhh

the dr had thought nicholas was still breeched since she last checked him last wk cause his heartbeat on the doppler was above my belly button. and since i'll be out of town for a few wks, she decided to double check on the ultrasound machine to make sure and it turned out he's completely turned already head down! she also did a cervix exam and can feel his head pushing down and the dr said that she could be wrong but she feels as if the baby will be here about 2 wks or so early. i really hope that he is so that i can hurry up and be a mom, and move back to 29 to our home. i'm so exhausted lately but i'll blame a lot of that on the cold i got from being in the creek all day at the maternity shoot. Robitussin should work some wonders right? lol i hope so! this week there's a lot to do and i can't wait to get it all done!

so yesterday i had my maternity photos done by lisa hermes of lisa hermes photography. she did an amazing job and i had so much fun doing different outfit changes or lack there of lol ... anyways i'm 35 wks pregnant now and the photos are absolutely amazing. i love them!

kris has been bugging me to get him some new clothes so shopping i went! i hope i got him enough to last for awhile, but it looks like when we're all settled we'll just go shopping bit by bit and get him clothes he'll need. got lots done, and more things to do. gonna go back to base in a couple wks or less to sign for a house and set it all up. then kris and nicholas will be here. i'm getting pretty anxious but excited at the same time.

i have this nagging feeling the baby will be here early. hopefully early enough but not too early where he'll be sickly. got lots of good news, and lots of phone calls to make soon :) and i'm sleeping a lot better now than i was last wk. trying to kick the insomnia.

33wks and the baby is still breech except his head is tucked under my right ribs, and his back curves around my left side and his butt is right the left of my pelvis area. so i came home and popped the belly buds on to hopefully have the music lure him down low (that's where i place the buds, real low by my pelvis) and i fell asleep with them on haha.. so 90mins later and i'm slouching sitting indian style in bed, and his head isn't in my ribs anymore!! he's probably just moving around cause he's still poking in my right side but i think he might he transverse now so maybe some music therapy will get him to drop into the right position soon. i have another appt in 1 wks and hopefully by then he'll be good to go and i won't need the dr's help to turn him.

i'm getting into the habit of couponing so that when i move to base, i can save money on trips to the commissary or any other major chain store we shop at like stater bros, walmart, food 4 less etc. manufacturer coupons paired with sales sounds like a good deal to me!

this is me at 32 wks, taken today by my friend jenny. she drove all the way from socal to visit with me for a few hours. made me feel so special! she also go this new hello kitty polariod camera along with the hello kitty film :D so cute!! i really want it lol.. just thought this would be a cute update! nick's due date is in 2 months.. i really hope he's here before then! *crosses fingers* :D

deployment blows but i've got some good news :) just gonna wait and see and not jinx anything. i can't wait for my family to be whole again!

i've been talking about sex non stop to just about anyone who talks to me. i feel like such a perv sometimes but it's the closest thing i can get til after the baby's born. i'm still crossing my fingers kris will come home advon and that the baby will come early. i've been nesting like crazy and started on nicholas' laundry a couple days ago and i'm still working on it. so many things to wash! and then rearranging it all. i hope that after he's born, i'll have the energy to do his laundry and put it away the way i have it now. i also hope that i won't have to change him like a million times a day or we'll never have enough clothes. the 31st meu page said they got replenished today so hopefully there's mail for them since i sent kris a package a month ago and 2 about 2 wks or so ago. i'm tired but a total insomniac. i'm trying to sleep -_____-

i am feeling so sick. whether i eat or not i just wanna throw something up. definitely not as bad at my 1st trimester though so i'll just sit tight and count my blessings.

leave it to me to eat like a horse. even though i can't eat as much as i did pre pregnancy or in my 2nd trimester, i'm still hungry all the time. all this noshing is kinda annoying especially when i've wiped out everything in the house. i've only gone up 18lbs this entire pregnancy so i'm a few lbs over the ideal weight but still have some wiggle room to work on that until i deliver. the ladies at church also made a surprise announcement today that they'll be having a baby shower for me the 1st sunday in may so i was in a shock when i heard cause i had no idea! so i'm getting excited :) ahhhhhhhhhh i'm so hungry!!

our communication has been cut in half but i'm still glad i get to talk to kris everyday. i'm also trying not to sleep so much during the day cause when i'm awake i feel as if my eyes are half closed and they're so heavy. too much sleep isn't good :/.. then i'm feeling so yucky today and idk if it's the weather but i'm just not having it. i'm all itchy with hives and i hate being itchy.. ugh!! gonna try to make an appt to see my dr tomorrow if i can to get something to make it go away. then there's new sensation in my belly and i think it happens when nicholas moves but it's like someone has their fist up against the inside of my belly and is just twisting and pushing their fist into me.. it's so weird and it's pretty uncomfortable but not painful. i'm having one of those days when all i want to do is cry and cry and cry. i wish kris was here to cuddle me and let me cry it all out then put me to bed :( i miss my bebe!! everything changes everyday but i'm praying that he'll be able to come home early. it'll absolutely crush him if he can't... aiyah.

kris just docked in japan and i'm anxious to hear from him what is the next step from here. in the meanwhile the weather here has been a bit wack meaning one day it's bright and sunny and the next it's pouring and hailing like it's nobody's business. 10.5wks to go and i'm anxious for the time to fly. all i have to do is get nursing items, laundry washed and stored, and that's about it. i've been so good at keeping calm through all this that i'm afraid i'm just gonna lose it in the end. i also got a ridiculously long email from kris that says nothing but i love you. this day is interesting. i got up at 4am to pee, then only to see kris online and we chatted for a bit. then i get some nice emails from him this afternoon :) he really knows how to brighten up my rainy days. i'm wanting some ihop so my friend angelica also needs some 'me' time so we're gonna go gossip away at ihop in a bit. pretty excited to get out and stretch for a bit. i'm usually cooped up in bed either napping or netflixing when then the weather gets real ugly like this. woot woot!

12 more wks to go! i'm in my 3rd trimester and i'm getting so antsy. i really want this time to fly. first cause i'm getting uncomfortable and i'm really getting big now. like as soon as i hit 28wks, my belly just blew up lol then it'll be about when kris comes home. so i'm really wanting this time to go go go! and also, the meu is being repositioned and is on stand by in japan for humanitarian efforts. there's a lot of backlash because people are saying that the us govt shouldnt be helping the japanese because of what happened at pearl harbor and that it's karma. my mind is reeling because there is no humanity. and it makes me so sad that this is the society my child will be exposed to and i'm not ok with that. i was taught that no matter what others do to you, kill them with kindness. because an eye for an eye makes the whole world blind. i'll have to pray on this in church tomorrow. i really hope that they'll be safe in that area and that as many lives as possible can be saved.

“Deployments do not have to be like the end of the world. They are tough, and they can be trying, but they can also be done. If there is anything that a deployment does for a couple, it’s helping us realize all the things we love about our spouse … because they are always the things we miss the most.” - Sara Horn

my confirmation is next sunday and i'm so excited! cause when kris comes home he already called dibs to be confirmed with the baby and that he wants to start going to church and making the family stronger. which makes me so so happy. in any case, if we are both confirmed then we can finally have a church wedding sometime later on down the road and that means little nicholas can be a bit bigger and maybe even participate :) i'm headed head first into my 3rd trimester in a couple days and my body is going back to my 1st trimester with constant peeing and nausea not to mention i'm so out of breath sometimes cause he's all up on my lungs. little nicholas, what will i ever do with you? hehe.. and then yesterday i went to my mom's friend's place and she gifted me with a hiking carrier for babies, a potty training potty, a night and day bottle warmer, dr brown bottles, a diaper genie, and a brand new limerick's pj double breastpump with is retailed from 575-700+. which is amazing. i can't believe i got so lucky and not have to worry so much. she even gave me a bedding set, an infant/toddler tub which means i don't need to transition out of this 1st tub so fast, shower toys, and some other fun things. only 12more wks to go and i'm getting so excited. i can't wait to go to motherhood maternity and get some nursing items so i can finally finish packing my bag and just anticipate his arrival :) also his stroller frame was delivered to me a few days ago and i love how light it is! i just hope kris doesn't go overboard with buying baby items overseas but i'm sure he will anyways lol

the state of ca thinks i'm rich. my registration came, then my license renewal is the same month and then i got a parking ticket in front of my house. holy jesus... it's gonna be a very expensive month of may

i went to the car seat safety class tonight at eden and it was so informative! not to mention i love my car cause when i bought it wasn't thinking about kids but i loved that it's rated one of the highest in it's class for safety and it ranks up there with the bmw 5 series which is it's european equivalent. and now that i have to get ready for the baby, it has everything i need to install the car seat safely and properly. makes me feel like i did a great job even pre pregnancy... like a maternal instinct was instilled in me from way back when lol.. i just need some nursing things and travel sized toiletries and my bag is good to go. then my friends offered to sit with me at the laundromat so i can can do all the baby's laundry in 1 load instead of 5 at home which i'm so so glad to have the help! i'm going into my 3rd trimester and i can really feel the weight coming on.. i mean i'm heaving just walking the mall for a couple hours. also my glucose test is tmmrw so i'm praying that everything's ok. nice and hectic morning!

the deployment half way party for out battalion is coming up in a few wks and i'm really excited cause it just reaffirms that time is passing and that he will be coming home soon! some crazy ups and downs in the last couple days but i'm gonna take a deep breath and move forward. i hate it when people write to checks out to mr and mrs *insert our last name* cause kris isn't here, the bank has to double verify everything and since his name isn't on my acct it's really hard to get pass the deposit at the counter part. drive thru atm right? i love them when i'm too lazy to run out of the car lol oh wells, gotta love it. anyways our ex landlord finally decided to cut us a check but $100 short of our orig deposit but what's the point in pursuing it if the check clears? it'll cost me just that much if not more to try to recover the difference. ehhh i'm so over it. never again will i deal with shady people like them.

i've got just about everything i need for the baby. just the last minute nursing items i need to order and have shipped or maybe i'll just take myself to the mall lol.. next up is my hospital bag and again i have everything minus the nursing items. woohoo! my mom and i are on the fence with each other about a boppy pillow, a stroller frame vs travel system and whether kris is capable of taking care of me post partum or not. i just love how we disagree on things like this. but i do have a breast pump waiting for me just gotta go pick it up when my mom has time and i'm gonna order the extra parts to make sure 100% its' sanitary. i'm 3 months early but i hope nicholas is at least 1-2 wks early so i can have him at least 6-7 wks old before our big move date in july. it's raining again after a couple days of intense sunshine and there's even a possibility of snow from 1000 ft to sea level by tmmrw. gotta love this nutty weather.

i'm 25.5 wks and finally a belly shot of me in something other than a tank haha.. i was on my way to church and was feeling really good about this new shirt :) love love love!